talkin` to * shuling. benedict.
listenin` to * guang liang - tong hua

had 6677 gatherin` today. went ta je kbox at eleven for da klunch. sang sang sang till two.
then jiaqi, huiling, siewkay, kathy, peishan, keng yeow, chinkuan and me decided ta play pool at bukit timah. smsed benedict. asked him if he`s going coz he always plays there, if im not wrong. x= ehhs. then played pool lors. benedict was with his friends. two tables away from mine. first time im meetin` him though ive known him two to three years. skillful right? xP yups. hes cute. haha. jiaqi says he`s quite handsome. lols. whatever laa.
then he kept askin` me to go over ta his table ta play. but im a noob. dont wanna malu maself. x= so i never play with him. so sad lors, he asked me to go away when i saw him smokin`. SAD.
lols. peishan, huiling, kathy and keng yeow left already. left with siewkay, jiaqi, chinkuan and me. went over to boon tong kee to have chickie rice for dinner. so darn expensive. o.o"
ehs. lol. thats about it. just updating for the sake of updating. im bored, you see.

ttalkingg ttoo [[ __ \\ nnobodyyy
tthinkingg ooff [[ __ \\ yyouuu
llisteningg ttoo [[ __ \\ tthat's what friends are forrr

valentines day without a valentine.
that's the best thing that can ever happen to anyone. -claps-
i give up. you dont know what you want at all. you took your revenge by hurting me so deeply. promises? they're so meant to be broken. i want to hate you so much. but i just cant. this feeling sucks, you know? was reading your blog. why. why is it that you can hold on to the relationship with K. why is it that you can keep asking her to patch. why cant you treat me this way. sigh.
what will you be when one day i disappear from your life, totally.?
ive tried so hard. even to the extend of asking for a patch. i prayed hard for God to let us be together once again. but nothing seems to work.
i cant feel you anymore. i cant feel your love anymore.
i tell myself, as long as you're happy, i will be happy too.
but im not so noble..
i cant bear to see you leave. i cant bear to see you living your life so happily when im not by your side anymore.

i wonder, again, what will you be feeling when one day, i disappear from your life, totally..

Cruel to the eye
I see the way he makes you smile
Cruel to the eye
Watching him hold what used to be mine

Why did I lie?
What did I walk away to find
Oooohhh...why...oooh -- why...

CHORUS
I.... can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
No I.... can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air....

Curse me inside
For every word that caused you to cry
Curse me inside

I won't forget, no i won't baby i
don't know why (don't know why)
I left the one i was looking to find

Ooh -- why...ooooh, why -- why...

CHORUS
I.... can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
No I.... can't breathe easy (breathe easy)
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air....

no I.... can't breathe easy (can't breathe easy)
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air....


Out of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life

That's all I'm breathing for

Ooooooohhhhh -- tell me why

Oh won't you tell me why

I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

I... can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night

Till you're by my side

now i can't breathe easy

I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

There's no air.

it all ended last night.
do you know how hurt i am.
how sad i am.
how much i feel like dying.
i cried when i hugged eeyore. i cried when i wore our ring. i cried when i took out everything you gave me. i cried when i saw your msgs. i bet you didnt know. and you'll never know.
i know its hard on you.
i know its hard to forgive me. coz i cant forgive myself either.
surely our relationship was strong enough to withstand it all?
but no..
it turned out otherwise.
we've gone through so much. from the rocky relationship at first coz of kelly, to the relationship whereby we've to keep everything from christine, to the one she said she'll wait for you, to the one you didnt care about her at all, to the one you promised me that your heart will always be with me..
remember the times we spent together? playing with hannah. cooking fried rice for me. waiting hours for stupid 184 bus. going on our first date together - the terminal. our rings. ur neoprint. the first photo we took together on your new handphone. all the shows we've watched together - terminal, bridget jones, fockers, kung fu hustle, shall we dance.. the times we studied together before the os and the as? the time you folded the heart for me at macdonalds. hanging out together at malls. the first and the last time we went to the church in the name of a couple.. the time we went to the children's arcade at bugis and had so much fun. the time you bought me eeyore. the time you bought the hp chains.. everything.. everything.. i bet you wont remember them anymore..
im sad.. but i still want you to be happy. i'll wait for you, even if you go to NS, even if you fall for another girl, even if it means to lose everything.
i used to think that we might break up coz of kelly or coz of christine who keeps contacting you. but im wrong. no, i was wrong.. hais.
when we were together, nobody knew how i felt when she keeps contacting you. especially when she even told you that she'll wait for you.. hais.
promise me you'll be happy always. promise me to remember everything we've gone through together. promise me to enjoy your life.. promise me to remember me.. promise me to love me always..
lovers, no more. mine, no more. your love, no more.
memories, checked. heartbreak, checked. tears, checked..

i want you to be happy. if breaking up makes you happy, then i respect your choice, though im hurting from deep within.

o1o9o4 - 11o2o5
5 months and 1o days.
i'll love you always and forever, till the end of time.
i promise.

-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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please stand by me.
let us cross this hurdle together.
im sorry to have let you down.
i still love you.
please dont leave me.
but if you really do, there's nothing i can do about it..
i just want you to be happy.
ironically, i hurt your feelings.
i dont know what i was thinking.
i need time to forget all about it.
will things remain the same for us?
what will the future hold for us?
we've spent so much time together.
memories of you and i etched in my mind.
all the things we've done together.
are you really willing to give them up?
i love you.
i really do.
i dont expect you to forgive me immediately, coz i cant forgive myself either.
i doubt i can ever forgive myself.
im sorry.
),=
please, give our relationship one more chance.
five months and six days..
and counting..
hopefully.

<33>
o1o9o4__ [ x ]

now&forever
you&me

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[ oo7 ]

Wednesday, February 02, 2005
2:11 PM

ttalkingg ttoo [[ __ \\ hhuilingg
tthinkingg ooff [[ __ \\ ddearr
llisteningg ttoo [[ __ \\ nnothingg

fifth month today.
and counting..

<3 i love you.

now&forever
you&me

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adeline ; yuqi
15/o8/1988
ngee ann poly ; biotech
attached - since oh one oh nine oh four

good food. music. teevee. englong.