boos. im sick. was sick since tuesday.. sighs.

anyway, met ma dear on friday when he booked out. his sispec basic course end already! :D yupps, and he got into OCS!! officer cadet course. arhahas. and OCS is at jurong! which means we'll have more time together on weekends, rather than like last time. haha. ohhh yaa! going to OCS also means higher pay!! weee! lol. anyway, he came over to bukit panjang to look for me on friday laa. but met for a while only, cuz he had to book in to go back to tekong to pack his stuff to move to OCS. uh huh.

so yesterday dearie booked out in the noon. we went to jurong point to buy some stuff he needs for OCS. lols. and we watched Stealth. its a rather nice show. (: after the show went to the first storey to eat. and guess what, i met PANDIAN with his wife and kid! lols. dear didnt see him, so i told him. walked over to pandian. pandian saw dear and was talking to him laa. then he turn and saw me beside dear, he was shocked! and was asking "you 2 different batch right?" "one year or two years difference?" lol. so cute sia. he's so sweet! he was buying accessories for his wife. lol. the way he dressed himself is like some ah pek going market. X: shh. dont tell him that.

hahaa. then i went to mos to eat. damn hungry. ate teriyaki chic burger cuz i cant eat fried stuff. sadd. after that, dear sent me home.

:D

im gonna meet him for lunch later too! :D:D:D


today's july 31st. which makes tomorrow august 1st. which means its our ELEVENTH MONTHSARY!! *beams

ILOVEYOU!

great.
fever. 38.9°C

my joints are sore.
my head's spinning.

):

gees. i was scared stiff when i saw the tags. lols. so i msged el, asked him why he type such a sad tag. yups. he just means he has to go back to tekong laa. (: and assured me that he meant nothing bad in it. he just felt sorry that he doesnt have time for me. silly boy.. i understand laa. (: ilu!

uh huhs.. thanks christine, for your concern. (:



ehhs. yup. went out with el just now for the whole afternoon. ate at kobayashi - ma favourite omelette noodles! :D:D:D watched a movie at cineleisure, quite a boring show but yea, rather touching. then walked to taka to grab some light bites. after that take train back to clementi lors. discussed about something which made me quite upset. hmms. then i felt a lil sick. very dizzy suddenly. but i insisted on walking to the peitong primary's 184 bus stop maself, he was kinda worried. sorry ehhs.
bought some sweets to eat when i reached bukit panjang plaza and i felt better.

weird ehhs? i dont have low blood pressure, according to the nurse who went to nan hua last year. lol. but ironically, i had to take my blood pressure thrice before she can take the normal blood pressure thingy. -.- she said the first 2 times were a lil low. crap.


IM A HEALTHY YOUNG GIRL. :D and i miss ma darling. ):
added// IM A LUCKY LIL GIRL!



you* i wont give you up, dont worry. (: i will never give you up, in fact. *promise iloveyouuu!

: i tink u sark larhhs.hahas.keep saying fark.yuckss.cant u plz jus shaddup????

yeay. hate notes.
i despise you, like how you despise me.

:D

it's shut up, by the way. not shat up, or shaddup.


hate me for all you like.
your words cant bring me down.
childish.



ha.




scram if you dislike me.
i dont need you as a friend. i dont need you in my social circle.
i believe you dont need me either, so just get out of my life.


(:

now&forever
you&me

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READ THIS LA.

2:11 AM

okay, ive to make things clear. in case i cause any misunderstandings.
samuel told me to do so.


ALL THE ENTRIES ARE DIRECTED TO A FRIEND FROM MY CLIQUE. IF NOT ARE JUST RANDOM RAMBLINGS.

so if you're not from my clique, you know that im not referring to you.

period.

now&forever
you&me

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Thank You

1:39 AM

I thought that I could always count on you
I thought that nothing could become between us two
We said as long as we would stick together
We’d be alright
We’d be ok

But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I’ll never be the same again

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

Yeah

I wonder why it always has to hurt
For every lesson that you have to learn
I won’t forget what you did to me
How you showed me things I wished I’d never see

But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I’ll never be the same again

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

When the tables turn again
You’ll remember me my friend
You’ll be wishing I was there for you

I’ll be the one you miss the most
But you’ll only find my ghost
As time goes by
You’ll wonder why
You’re all alone

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

So thank you, for lying to me
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back

now&forever
you&me

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-.-

Monday, July 11, 2005
9:11 PM

its funny how some people can misunderstand me.

why do people like to put words in ma mouth and accuse me of doing something ive never done?

everybody around me is like that.
im like that too.

i think we need to have a good talk.

i was merely asking about something simple.
i care, you know?
but people mistook ma intentions.
they take it as im challenging them and all.


is it the way i do things?
ive no idea at all.
cuz nobody bothers to tell me anything.
they gossip behind me. but they just wouldnt tell me anything.


will one change for the better like that?


but im telling all of you this,
im just straightforward.
that doesnt mean im mean or what.
its for his/her/their/your own good.






i dont harbour any evil intentions.
i swear.


why must people misunderstand me?
why?
*tear-edd.

now&forever
you&me

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bahs

Sunday, July 10, 2005
11:29 PM

dont have to go to school for a week.

study week.

zz.

lame.

have ta do projects.

damn it.

tried to cheer people up but ended up being irritated and all.

can you just fuck off and die?

sometimes i wonder what i get from being there for people all the time.

people just treat me like dirt. when they need somebody to listen to their complains, they look for me. and when they're done with it, they leave.

people only share their troubles with me.

what about their joy and all?

they share it with others.

who the fuck do they think i am?

arent friends supposed to share EVERYTHING? be it bad or good.

well, am i even a friend to you?

to her?

to him?

to them?

i dont know.

i treasure ma friends. but seems that none of them out there treasures me.

fuck.

nobody listens to me.

nobody knows how i feel.

nobody bothers.

and when somebody needs help, they come to me. when people wanna condemn somebody, they come to me. in the end, im the one who gets condemned.

why am i always acting as a baddy?

just cuz im straightforward doesnt mean i instigate everything!

i just wanna know the truth.

just wanna know what's happening to all ma friends.

is that wrong?

bahs.

fuck off.

and die.

you suck.

yes, you.

):

if i didnt care about you, would you think i'll be bugging you? so be it if you dont appreciate ma concern. why is it that people around me can keep their own secrets, but i cant? why do i have to tell you everything? im not obliged to do so. neither are you obliged to tell me your secret.

i hate you.

i hate her.

i hate him.

i hate everyone of you.

i hate myself.

*fucked off. and died.

now&forever
you&me

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HAPPY

Friday, July 08, 2005
11:13 PM

I LOVE SIEWKAY, HUILING, KATHY, JIAQI, BOONHENG & JEFFREY! :D:D:D
haha. had IS class this morning from 10am-12pm then went home to sleep.
woke up and went to meet the people mentioned above at causeway point. at first a bit sian sian de. maybe cuz we havent "warm up". yea. went to pizza hut and ate. lol. darn nice. :D:D:D ermmmms. to0k loads of pictures at pizza hut. wees. o.Ov
went to toilet with da girls. then we decided to play a prank on boon and jeff. so clever me taught of a prank..
i messaged boon and jeff this " eh. can help us buy sanitary pad? kotex one. with wings. night use one. huiling having heavy flow. we helping her wash her skirt. lol. " YUPS! we used huiling's name cuz this outing is to celebrate her birthday, though its a bit late laa.
uh huh. so jeffrey called me. he was damn paiseh and was laughing away. kept asking me to go out and buy da sanitary pad ourselves. so i gave a stupid excuse. "cannot laa. one of us helping huiling hold her bag. two of us helping her wash skirt. one of us talking to huiling to entertain her." lol. AND HE BELIEVED ME! :D:D:D he even said "wah laooo! i wearing school uniform leh!" LOL yupps. so i said "you buy le then call me laa. ok?" and i hung up. LOL~ x:
ps: throughout this entire thingy, we were busy taking photos at the lift lobby near the toilet. LOL.
okkk. so yea, he called me after a while and asked "what colour de arh?" colour here refers to the colour of the packaging. LOL. yes, guys sort sanitary pads' brands by colour, that's what we found out through this experience. soo i told him "kotex one la. remember to buy night use de arh! 38cm de!" and he said "cannot find!". i said "aiyahh. huiling say anything la. as long as can use can ler." so he said "OHH! i found it! okok."
lolsss! so boon and jeff came down. and pass me the sanitary pad. kotex. for night use. they got it right!
the girls had a great laugh out of it. we filmed down the process of passing them the watson's plastic bag saying "to boon and jeff. congratulations! you have been pranked! on this faithful fateful day - 8 July" LOL.
DAMN CUTE RIGHT? :p
from this, you can tell that both of them are true friends! they go all the way to help you. yea. LOVE THEM! :D:D:D

yes. all of us enjoyed ourselves! lols. CUZ CLEVER ME THOUGHT OF THAT PRANK! :D:D:D
yea. i love themmm!
after that, we took loads of other photos inside causeway point. all the other people must have thought we were cranky. then we went to civics centre's macdonalds and slacked there. after that we went home. weees.

and we realised something, we are happier when you are not around. i dont know wtf happened to you laa.. you are eating nothing and exercising alot. pls. BEAUTY DOES NOT THOROUGHLY DEPEND ON ONE'S LOOKS! how are you gonna survive with just AN APPLE through the entire day? IT IS CRAZY, YOU KNOW?! seriously. you were pretty the way you were. but now, you are trying way too hard. it turns people off. i bet you didnt know that? sticking with the prettiest girl in school does not make you popular too! you were god-damn natural last time. so comfortable with your looks and all. but now, you think your hair is oh-so-pretty but in fact, it sucks big time. its so thick and bushy. and dye-ing your hair doesn't make you cool too. seriously. im trying to help you. you've really pissed alot of people off with the ultimate and outrageous change in yourself. turning from bad to worse. omg. if you think im wrong / biased, so be it. i wanna make things clear. all that ive said here are on behalf of everybody around you. showing your boobs to the guys doesnt make them fall for you. they said they "wanted to puke". yes. so pls, save yourself. dont sink deeper. pls, go back to your old self. PLEASE! if not, one day, you'll find all your friends leaving you. i really look forward to seeing the old you.

now&forever
you&me

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die

Thursday, July 07, 2005
10:35 PM

one day, i tell you, im gonna die from all the stress.
gosh. so many projects to do. so lil time.
and common test is just a week or so away.
freakkooo.

im extremely disappointed by ma extremely EXTREME results. let me tell you ma results for ma 3 tests alright? and you'll know what i mean.

organic and biological chemistry -- 17/60
cell biology -- 26/40
infotechnology -- A

dang. get what i mean now?
like, WHAT DA HECKKK!
let me tell you something, i've never studied biology before. neither do i have any knowledge of infotechnology. all i did was to follow da instructions on the manual (open book test).
and for organic and biological chemistry, i studied a lil before, in secondary school. but i failed.
damn it.
A B3 and F9.
freako.
shucks.
i need to buck up. please please don't arrange all the project group meetings during study week. i need to study, seriously.
it's by luck i passed ma cell biology test. i need to study. i need all of you guys from 1f05 to help me. im serious.
nobody knows how freakin stressed i am now.
damn.
i hate it.

poly life's damn slack.
that's why im super slack too.
but im panicking.
how am i supposed to get ma AD and get to university like that?
ive high expectations of maself alright. going to a poly doesnt mean that i dont give a damn about ma studies. im just pursuing a course that i really wanna do.
BIOTECHNOLOGY.
biotech rawkks.
but chemistry sucks.
if not, how would i get a B4 for ma O lvl chem? BOOS.
fart on chemistry!
*pOOooOOoooT*

now&forever
you&me

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SICK x(

Monday, July 04, 2005
9:38 PM

I AM SICK!
AND IM MISSING MA BABY.

x(


ive got mc for tomorrow. should i go to school anots? have ta do scientific presentation project with edwin and eunice. but ma head's spinning. nose's like a tap. someone tell me what i should do! x(

i dont have to go to school the whole of next week. it's study week. which means that common test is only a week away! and i havent started studying. i promise i'll start tomorrow! PROMISE!
ive to get ma AD to go to a university and pursue ma degree!
I HAVE TO!
gambettteee!

x( ma darling might be going overseas to study after he completes his national service. im so sad. but i'll support his decisions. :D:D:D I LOVE HIM!


boos. im having a headache trying to design a class tee for 1f05. everybody's having different opinions abt it. so yea, how da heck should i go abt designing it?
thinking of whr we should go for class outing too. boos. :(

saddd.

now&forever
you&me

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adeline ; yuqi
15/o8/1988
ngee ann poly ; biotech
attached - since oh one oh nine oh four

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