[ o23 ]
Saturday, May 07, 2005
2:17 PM
omg.ma previous post is misleading ehs?lols. im not referring to you* laa. (:that* matter is all over kae. i've nothing against you*.i dont know why you* think im referring to you*.lol.wake up. perhaps i should clarify some stuff.whatever i wrote in the previous post is referring to ma friendship with ma clique.yes, ma clique.siewkay, huiling, peishan, jiaqi, kathy, jeffrey, boonheng, chinkuan, weiwei, keng yeow.it's not to you*. those who know what's happening to ma clique will prolly understand what im going through.it's a mixture of feelings.i dont know if im feeling betrayed or what.i may be just pissed off.i dont know.is our friendship really that vulnerable?cant it just withstand these obstacles?should we be more understanding.?im struggling within maself.i no longer know what i want, what im feeling.it's just too bad angel cant be here, he's away at field camp. field camp sucks.he cant use the phone. for seven days.sighs.somebody please guide me on what to do.should we talk calmly on what's happening.yesterday, i went back to NHSS with ma clique for speech day. visited teachers. then all of a sudden, sparks flew. people began to bombard each other with questions, in order to clear their own doubts. yea, the guys were around too, but we just continued asking each other questions. what's a friendship without trust and understanding? i could see the guys were sort of afraid that a cat fight might just happen.. lol.. seriously, i dont really know much about what's going on betweeen us. remember? i didnt go to PJC for first three months coz i wanted to pursuit a different kind of lifestyle. i didnt go to PJC too, after the JAE posting results, even though all of you encouraged me to put PJC in one of ma choices. but i was stubborn, i was all set on ACJC and SAJC. but just too bad, SAJC's moving, so i didnt put it in ma choices. and i missed but 1/2 pts to get into AC. but what's the big deal of being in AC? haa. im so relived i didnt get in now. anyway, i really hope we'll sort things out. 2 years of friendship. i hope it wont end up as all fo us going separate ways. we gave up on meisi. are we gonna give up on her? hopefully not. she changed, i agree. but we all changed too. maybe that's why we cant tolerate her behaviour. we used to be so natural. so fun. but look what happened to us now? sighs. i really miss those days. i really miss them. i miss the old us.i miss the old me.somebody. save me.God. teach me what to do.where's ma guardian angel?
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you&me
Friday, May 06, 2005
11:58 PM
you're lame. (:trust.why cant we just trust her.why cant you just trust me.changes.everybody changed. we said she changed. maybe we are the ones who changed? i dont know.love.if you really love a person, why bother about what others say?no one is infallible.we make mistakes.just learn from themwhy cant you just do this?everyone has an evil side.dont tell me that you never gossiped about others.dont tell me that you never once lied.dont tell me that you are oh-so-lovely.that's all just a lie.everything changes over time.so what if people are against you?just be yourself.just have faith in yourself.have faith in them.what for go around criticising people?that's so -.-wake up.we're all still young.still immature to a certain extent.wait till we all grow up.and we shall think back.and realise how lame and immature we were.meanwhile, just relax and live your life well.you're you.nobody can change that fact.nobody can make you change your personality, even if it really turns people off.just smile.and let it go.im evil. (:
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you&me