bahs
Sunday, July 10, 2005
11:29 PM
dont have to go to school for a week.
study week.
zz.
lame.
have ta do projects.
damn it.
tried to cheer people up but ended up being irritated and all.
can you just fuck off and die?
sometimes i wonder what i get from being there for people all the time.
people just treat me like dirt. when they need somebody to listen to their complains, they look for me. and when they're done with it, they leave.
people only share their troubles with me.
what about their joy and all?
they share it with others.
who the fuck do they think i am?
arent friends supposed to share EVERYTHING? be it bad or good.
well, am i even a friend to you?
to her?
to him?
to them?
i dont know.
i treasure ma friends. but seems that none of them out there treasures me.
fuck.
nobody listens to me.
nobody knows how i feel.
nobody bothers.
and when somebody needs help, they come to me. when people wanna condemn somebody, they come to me. in the end, im the one who gets condemned.
why am i always acting as a baddy?
just cuz im straightforward doesnt mean i instigate everything!
i just wanna know the truth.
just wanna know what's happening to all ma friends.
is that wrong?
bahs.
fuck off.
and die.
you suck.
yes, you.
):
if i didnt care about you, would you think i'll be bugging you? so be it if you dont appreciate ma concern. why is it that people around me can keep their own secrets, but i cant? why do i have to tell you everything? im not obliged to do so. neither are you obliged to tell me your secret.
i hate you.
i hate her.
i hate him.
i hate everyone of you.
i hate myself.
*fucked off. and died.
now&forever
you&me